At the International Christian Mompreneur Network, we’re not making New Year’s Resolutions. We’re choosing a scripture verse to guide us through the year instead. We’re selecting a verse that speaks to our hearts and offers support, hope or motivation for us to live out the following year with purpose and direction. The following is part of a series of posts featuring members of the International Christian Mompreneur Network sharing their scripture verse of the year. We pray these posts will inspire and encourage you to select a scripture verse to guide you through the year as well.
Scripture Verse of the Year 2014 – By María Ruiz Scaperlanda
“When they had rowed about three or four miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea and coming near the boat, and they began to be afraid. But he said to them, ‘It is I. Do not be afraid.’” ~John 6:19-20
When I was pregnant with my second child, I remember caring people trying to reassure me about pregnancy and parenting by saying, “At least it’s not your first one. You already know what’s coming.”
And while there’s a level at which that truth does, indeed, bring certain confidence, all I could think of at the time was, “Oh God, help me! I know what’s coming!”
Yes, experience can and should provide us with a certain comfort, a guarantee of sorts, that helps us face reality and move forward. As in, I gave birth and survived the experience, I can do it a second time—and a third, and a fourth! Or, I made it through diapers and potty training, I know I will live to tell the tale of my children in grade school, or, gulp, high school.
As a writer, the fact that I’ve completed a manuscript before helps me when I struggle with my current book project, and it reminds me that I can do this, again! And if a publisher thought my writing was worthy of being published before, it can—no, it WILL, happen again. Right?
But if I’m honest with myself, the fact that I’ve done it before—whatever the “it” happens to be, can also fill my heart with fear and anxiety. Like pregnancy and delivery, knowing what can happen only reminds me that I am never in control, and that there is nothing I can do to ever be completely prepared for what’s next. No amount of predicting and preparation—whether it is for parenting, or my next physical challenge and surgery, or my next book, will ever anticipate all that could happen.
Sometimes acknowledging that reality can paralyze me with fear.
This past year has been a tough one. I walked with my closest spiritual friend during the final months of her life here on earth, saying our final goodbyes to one another in July. At the same time, my father’s declining health hit a crisis point, and then another—and taking care of him demanded all my time, energy, and attention.
The thing is that I know how fast life can and does change, and that understanding can be terrifying.
So when I saw the invitation through Lisa Hendey at CatholicMom.com to pick and share with the Christian Mompreneur Network not just a word for 2014, but a Scripture phrase to live with, pray with, and grow in during this coming year, I immediately felt invited to face these fears.
As 2014 begins, I don’t know what this verse will teach me this year. I honestly don’t have insights as much as I have questions:
What would it mean if I truly “feared not” — if my every word, every thought, every action stood solidly on the confident ground that I am a child of this God who genuinely and completely loves me?
How would I live as a spouse, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a writer, if my heart wholeheartedly embraced the reality that God is with me, period?
What if I truly saw everything in my life, down to the smallest daily detail, as being within God’s plan of salvation for me and for all the people in my life whom I love?
My prayer is that I recognize Jesus walking on the water coming to be with me, and that I give him my fearful, willing heart.
As a blogger, speaker, and author of five books, Maria Ruiz Scaperlanda has traveled broadly, including assignments for the Catholic press to Israel, Turkey, Europe and Central America. Her fondest memory was covering Pope John Paul II’s historic visit to her native Cuba.
Maria lives in Norman, OK, with my her of 32 years, Michael–and four adult children and three grandchildren, with number four due any day! She blogs at Day by Day With Maria.
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