Remember when your children were newborns and everyone told you to enjoy them now because they grow up too fast? You knew there was truth in that well-intended advice, but in the midst of sleepless nights, colicky screams and never-ending laundry, you had a difficult time “enjoying the moment.” Well, maybe you didn’t but I sure did!
It wasn’t until my last little child was out of diapers that I began yearning for another newborn. I miss those days. When I see a baby – fussy or not – I look at my husband with an achy heart. He thinks I’m a crazy hormonal mess, but I know for certain my ovaries are in a state of serious depression. Despite the newborn chaos, I loved every single minute of those early years. Even if I didn’t recognize it then.
Fast forward eight years and I find myself in a new kind of chaos. Today, it’s more about…
- Middle school drama (including friends, enemies, puberty, sex, drugs, alcohol and all my favorite topics);
- Restrictions on video games, social media, phones, music, movies and pretty much everything else (I am THAT mother who doesn’t care what EVERYBODY else is allowed to do);
- Transportation logistics (God should have given me a mature and safe driver for each one of my children…and He also could have given me the ability to be in two places at once…I would be so grateful for that right about now);
- Even more dirty laundry (my babies went through five outfits a day and my teens/tweens wear the same thing over an over again – how is it possible I have MORE laundry now?);
- Keeping the house clean enough that I’m not embarrassed when the whole team shows up uninvited;
- Feeding my family something that doesn’t come from a drive through or the freezer section of the grocery store;
- Missing my husband who always gets the worst of me – the exhausted, stressed and anxious woman who crawls in bed at the end of a busy day;
- Waking up at 5 am because it’s the only time I have to myself – to read devotionals, journal or exercise…sometimes even on Saturdays;
- Losing touch with family and friends because there simply isn’t enough time in the day for a phone call (the kind where you actually get to talk to each other);
- Oh, and running a business…let’s not forget that thing I love to do and sometimes wonder if I would go completely insane without!
Does any of this sound familiar? I’m willing to bet you have a similar list with a few adjustments depending on your season of life. [Read more...]